As I cross the Paw Paw River, a troubled mind I have
I never thought that I’d look back, just look ahead
But things don’t ever stay the same unless there is no more
So I move across the river and away from every shore
And as I think about that date last night, a puzzled mind I have
It didn’t feel right when he took my hand
And I wonder if I’ve shared too many kisses in my days
And if I’m the only one who’s in an angsty 20s phase
Cause I don’t see the world like I did before
Did the world change or did I
And I don’t know exactly what I’m moving toward
But I’ll be damned if I quit movin till I die
And as I think about my faith in God, a troubled mind I have
I couldn’t have anticipated where I am
And I wonder if I’ve sinned too much, or if I’ve sinned at all
I try to make sense of redemption, what’s the truth about the fall
Cause I don’t recognize the life I knew before
Now I see through different eyes
And I don’t have the answers I was certain of before
But I’ll be damned if I quit searchin till I die
And now I cross the Paw Paw River for the second time
This year is June, last year was July
And I wonder if I’ve moved ahead, or fallen behind
And I pray that God has mercy on my ever-changing mind
Cause I’ve been chasin down the girl I was before
Hoping one day she’d be mine again
But now I’m letting go,
I'm swinging wide the doors
And I am seeing colors that I never saw before
Now I lookin through new eyes
And I love you mama, but I’m no child anymore
And one day we’ll discover
we’re not made to please each other
And the mystery will be the answer when we die