I see everything I want and I want everything I see
I’ve got plans and I’ve got wishes, I see possibilities
I just look for someone else to take the lead
I’m a flighty bird that cannot find the perfect nesting tree
I’m a prisoner to pleasing every person close to me
Have I become a whore for other peoples’ needs?
When the shadows in the night
Become my only source of light
And I wanna run from my own life
Not gonna let this devil take away my life
I am romanced by the forest but seduced by every tree
I crave discipline but impulse makes a puppet out of me
Dr. Tom tells me one day I’ll be free
I’m afraid to show the colors I don’t think you want to see
They say comparison steals joy, I rob myself repeatedly
Never finding what I want to find in me
Sometimes I lie awake at night
Thinking up alternative lives
Of all the dreams that I have yet to try
Not gonna let this devil take away my life
No I won’t let this devil take away my life
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I’ve become quite skilled at building walls to keep love safe inside
But one thing I have learned is that when love is safe, it dies
27 years of life
You’d think I’d finally get it right
But the truth is, it’s a constant fight
And so I lie awake at night
With an overactive mind
Like those Keibler elves working overtime
And if I’m lucky, well sometimes
I can reason enough to find
That the darkness comes, but then comes light
So dark or light, may it be, I am free
Not gonna let this devil take over me